It hasn’t been easy, in fact to my dismay, I’ve come to the realization that secrets have a tendency to dribble from my lips to go running out to Kevin.  It’s alarming really. B.K (before Kevin, not Burger King) I could keep a secret like it was nobody’s business. If Secret Keeping was an Olympic sport, I’d have more metals then Michael Phelps. This was more due to the fact I would most likely forget the secret just moments after it was breathed to me in the deepest aire of secrecy. I could promise not to tell because in a few minutes I’d have forgotten the entire thing.

Until now.

I’ve been keeping this secret from my boy Kevin for a couple days now.I’ve been working on something alone in a dark room for quite sometime now and it’s finally on it’s way here. I’ll keep you guys posted but for now, my lips are sealed.

Uhhh… wedding plans. I’ve discovered somethings about myself as I’ve watched myself “prepare” for the biggest day of my life. I have some kind of weird fear of talking to people on the phone and I procrastinate too much… I’ll send those invitations that I haven’t got out later… Great.

Kevin and I are apparently “golden retrievers”. I must’ve cheated on my personality test, because I’m sure my personality is more king of the jungleish. “Apparently” Kevin and I are introverts that are more relationship oriented and will spend the remainder of our days huddled in a dimly lit corner of his basement, never to make human contact with the outside world. And honestly, I found myself thinking that we could have a lot of fun doing that, making couch cushion forts and such.

Last night I found out I had A.D.D. Jen and I were studying and talking about something, one of my friends looks like John Mayer… Oh and Kitty died. Not last night. He must have overdosed on all of the extra food I sprinkled in his bowl before leaving him alone for a week and a half. I found him on the bottom of his bowl… I buried him two days later.

Honestly, Kitty wanted to die. I think he was lonely, or maybe just bored. I would always catch him trying to jump out of his bowl or attempting to bury himself alive under the glass blobs I placed in the bottom of his bowl. I don’t blame him. How can you? Kitty was a Washington fish. If only he would have made it a few more weeks…

That’s the news. Kevin’s building a fence in his backyard so when we get married and I move in we can get a PUPPY! And we both think we could get a Kitty II too. I can’t wait. I have a fifty page study guide for a major test tomorrow, and since I can’t get CSI on hulu I think I might just go study for it. uhhh…. school. Wish me Luck!

Of course I said yes!

My happiness is almost overwhelming at times! He’s flying me home for Christmas so I can show my gorgeous ring off to all my friends and family,.. and anyone else who happens to see me in all my happiness. I can’t wait to see him again and spend Christmas with my fiance. I love him with all my heart and I can’t wait to start my life with him.

It’s cold. It’s wet. It’s school. It’s basketball. It’s studying. It’s homework and tests. It’s short days and early nights. …It’s fall.

After my 8 am to 4 pm First Aid CPR class on Saturday I ran home to find Kevin patiently waiting for me! It was overcast and getting cold, but Kevin told me that we were going to go up to Silver Falls, something that I’d been wanting to do for some time. We started out over rolling farmlands and we realized after the about fifth tree farm that Oregon people sure know how to grow Christmas trees. The drive was gorgeous. We passed tree farm after tree farm with cozy old farmhouses nestled in between. At the top of every hill crest we could see miles of green and dark clouds overhead and the sun piercing through. It was breathtaking. We finally reached the foothills and began the winding road up into the mountains. The clouds were hanging below us and the roadside reminded me of the small part of the Yukon I got to see on an Alaska trip I took a few years ago. We made it to the park and it started to rain so Kevin gave me his jacket. The falls were beautiful and the forest trees were starting to change into brilliant reds and yellows. We took the path under the falls and made an attempt to take a few wet misty pictures. It was a beautiful date. The park closed at 6 so we made our way back to Kevin’s truck and headed back to Salem. Kevin took me to a fancy restaurant and we had seafood and crab. It was amazing. My weekend was fantastical. I have the best life ever. The End.

Mmm… hmm.

I have so many things to be thankful for. It’s a beautiful day outside, I’m going to play basketball later, I have an amazing boyfriend who loves me, and I wake up excited every morning for being one day closer to him and the rest of my life. I have good friends, a good family and a wonderful life. It hasn’t been perfect, and I’ll be the first to admit I’ve made so many mistakes. I do have my regrets, plenty in fact. But if I had to go through with everything all over just to get to where I am, I’d do it, but differently. Every day we have a devotion after practice and Emily just did one on how we weren’t created by God to carry around our regrets. I for one am not big enough, nor strong enough to carry around my hefty load. It’s a relief that we don’t have to. I truly believe that I am the happiest I’ve ever been. This Friday I have a basketball game and after that I’ll hopefully get to spend my weekend with my favorites: Tammie, Tobin and Kevin.

Mmm… yum.

And school, it’s here too. Forgotten assignments hurriedly scrambled together to make the grade. I’m supposed to read…a lot. I don’t mind reading, never had. In fact I’ve enjoyed a good book every now and then. But this… this just isn’t enjoyable. I can’t bring myself to pick up my five pound “Critical Theory Since Plato” let alone actually READ it! Ugh. School. Bleck.

I miss everything. I miss summer and the sun. I miss the lake and the sand. I miss Washington and it’s apples. I miss heat and dead grass. I miss my farmers tan and I miss being able to park wherever I want. And I miss you, and all the fun we’ve shared. But we’ll make more memories. The sun may not come out tomorrow, …but it will in Ephrata.

Dang.

To sum up my life right now would be easy. I’m going to college in Salem Oregon and I, from some weird twist of fate and luck, play on Corban Colleges’ Womens Basketball team. Anyone who has played college sports can sympathize with me. Very intense and extremely time consuming.

Other than being a bit of a photoshop nerd, I’m nearly like every college student. Broke, underfed, and addicted to myspace. At the moment I’m procrastinating on a research paper presentation two days from now, some reading assignments, and two very important class projects… You are much more important to me. (more…)